readease Chapter 75 The Reason I Like You
Chapter 75 The Reason I Like You
Shen Boyan opened his mouth, as if he wanted to explain, but then he gave up again, and stepped forward to hug Xia Shu'an tightly.
"Xia Shu'an, I miss you so much."
What the hell?
Xia Shu'an frowned, and stepped on Shen Boyan's foot, hating that she was wearing cotton slippers and had no deterrent effect.
"Go away, I'm not your savior."
Shen Boyan didn't refute anything, but stared carefully at Xia Shu'an's face, shook his head and said, "Are you jealous?"
Xia Shuan smiled.
"I'm just reminding you of this fact. After all, a paramecium-like single-celled organism like you may not understand the logical closed loop of higher organisms."
Shen Boyan may not have understood this sarcasm, but he still complained with a bitter face:
"You're getting so savage now."
Xia Shuan has no expression on her face:
"If a man is ruthless, he will not be deceived."
Shen Boyan was silent for a while, as if completely erasing the interlude just now, and said again:
"Xia Shu'an, I know what kind of person you want me to be, but I really can't be a frank and straightforward person. My past is very bad. Like all male creatures who want to pursue a mate, I just want to ask you Show your attractive side."
Xia Shu'an couldn't help but think, did you act like that before and thought it was your attractive side?
Would you like to see a psychiatrist first?
Shen Boyan looked self-defeating. During the two weeks apart from Xia Shuan, he never had a happy day. During the week in Beijing, he was depressed and forced himself to focus on work.After becoming Xia Shuan's "neighbor" for a week, he was still depressed, and every day he was thinking about how to appear in front of him in the most natural and decent way, so as not to be scared into his shell immediately by Xia Shuan's hurt or accusing emotions .
In the end, he simply gave up. Anyway, he was not a perfect person. He could even be said to be very bad. If Xia Shuan really refused to accept it, he could spend his whole life grinding it. He won't let Xia Shu'an have other people around him.
He said quickly:
"Anyway, we will be together for the rest of our lives, and you will always see my unbearable side. Let's go!"
After finishing speaking, he was about to drag Xia Shuan to run outside.
Xia Shu'an:? ? ?
"Wait—" Xia Shu'an grabbed the door frame violently, and pulled Shen Boyan back with force.
"At least let me take my coat and keys, and also change my shoes and my mobile phone. Do you have common sense?!"
Shen Boyan: "..."
Well, the romantic elopement plan finally lost to the logic of reality.
Xia Shuan not only took the coat and keys and went out, but also enjoyed a very quality of life breakfast at home. After all, if you want to drive out to have breakfast in a big city, you have to find a parking space for 10 minutes. All went smoothly.
At first, Xia Shu'an wanted to ask Shen Boyan where they were going, but as the car slowly drove towards the outside of the city at high speed, he knew their destination.
The spring breeze in the April day, carrying the fragrance of flowers in the fields in the distance, slowly penetrated through the open car window. Xia Shuan squinted his eyes and looked out the window, his black hair was blown by the wind, and he was not in a good mood. Well, not necessarily bad.
Shen Boyan turned his head to look at him from time to time, as if he wanted to see the emotions on his face, but Xia Shu'an remained expressionless, as if he was wearing big sunglasses.
The atmosphere in the car was calm and awkward, with a sense of distance between the two of them, showing a bit of deliberate unfamiliarity.
Shen Boyan could feel that Xia Shuan was slowly moving away from him. Xia Shuan's compromise was not because he didn't mind anymore, but because he was a rational person, and he was waiting for Shen Boyan's final explanation.If the answer doesn't meet his wishes, he will mercilessly say NO to this relationship, and then throw Shen Boyan into a trash can that needs to be scrapped, permanently dusting him underground.
It took more than three hours for Rong Chuan to reach Changning City, and they stopped at the service area twice to rest, but Xia Shuan didn't want to eat in the service area.At noon, he ate some biscuits in the car to pad his stomach, and at nearly 1:[-], they finally arrived in Changning City.
Changning is not a well-developed big city. The slow pace of pedestrians along the streets, the figures of old people strolling in the park, and the shouts of sales promotion in the streets and alleys... the air is full of leisurely smell, which is obviously It is a place suitable for retirement.
The car drove across the wide main road and passed an old-fashioned residential street. The walls with traces of the past can easily make people calm down.
Shen Boyan suddenly pointed to a shop on the left and said:
"That's the bookstore you used to go to, but now it's a hot pot restaurant."
Times are changing, coupled with changes in the reading habits of modern people, the bookstores that students love to visit are gradually moving closer to Xinhua Bookstore and Education Bookstore, and many small shops have been converted into hot pot restaurants and barbecue restaurants, taking advantage of the wind of the times to continue to go far away.
There is a small county below Changning, and the local noodles are quite delicious, because they have not been made into a "chain brand", so they can hardly be eaten anywhere except Changning City.
A rare opportunity, they stopped the car and entered a fairly clean shop. The taste of the noodles was similar to what they remembered, not particularly delicious, but their feelings made it more valuable.
After eating, they wandered around the city for another half an hour. Old memories rushed out from the deep sea of consciousness in the brain, including the past that he thought he had forgotten: after school with his classmates The road I passed, the location of my favorite fruit shop, I went skating in the only shopping mall in the city on weekends, or walked into the bookstore next to me when my classmates went to the Internet cafe, and just sat for an afternoon.
......
Shen Boyan: "Do you still remember the aunt who sold pancakes at the school gate?"
"It is said that she and her son went out early and returned late to sell pancakes and made a fortune. Last year, they bought the latest villa in the central area of the city."
"..."
"There is also the owner of the book and newsstand next to the school. He finally decided to quit, and was picked up by his family this year. He took a Rolls-Royce pick-up and drop-off, went home directly to the elevator, and went fishing at his own manor on weekends. Chess day."
Xia Shu'an: "..."
"There is also the doorman I hate very much. His wife finally couldn't stand him, divorced him and kicked him out of the house. It is said that he can only live on the money from working in the supermarket, and he can't even pay for cigarettes. Yes." The man said happily.
Xia Shu'an: "..."
Do you want warmth or what are you doing?
The gate of the school has not changed, and even a lonely osmanthus tree at the gate has not found a partner.Shen Boyan greeted the principal in advance, and a bald-haired man in his 50s greeted them with a smile and entered the school gate, explaining as he walked:
"It's rare for you to go back to your alma mater. Over the years, the school has redecorated the library and expanded the area a little bit. The dormitory building and the cafeteria have also been refreshed. Other things have remained largely unchanged."
Shen Boyan: "I remember that my school didn't have enough equipment at that time. In physical education class, there were always students who couldn't play the sports equipment they wanted. It was rare to come back. I will make up for the school."
The principal said again and again: "It's hard for you to have a heart!"
This "conscientious" student obviously received great convenience from the school. After a short chat, Shen Boyan said that he wanted to go for a walk by himself and experience campus life again, and the principal readily agreed.
As the principal said, there was almost no change in the school, and the water in the fountain in front of the school's main entrance was still so dirty, so Xia Shu'an was worried about whether the fish in it would get skin diseases.
Near the playground is a big banyan tree. Someone is having a physical education class, just like they used to, and there are two or three people standing under the tree and talking.
Youth is infinitely good.
After passing the small playground, on both sides of the aisle is the teaching building and a lake, and then the dormitory building.Shen Boyan stopped on a flower corridor leading to the dormitory building outside the teaching building.
"At that time, you often waited for friends here."
The man raised his head and looked at the teaching building above. Looking down from the window seat, he could just see the flower corridor with winding vines. Covering the boy standing in the porch, only a shadow of the boy's slender and straight figure is faintly revealed.
His eyes are always sparkling, as bright as the sparkling lake beside him.When the breeze blows, the surface of the water flies in circles of cleared ripples in an instant, and the golden light shines along the white line of the lake surface into the eyes of the young man. When he smiles, it seems that there are fine pieces of gold leaf overflowing from his eyes .
The boy sitting by the window felt very strange, how could there be such a good-looking boy in this world?
Is he really a boy?Why is it so beautiful?
Until later, he forgot to ask himself this question, and just subconsciously captured the boy's figure.
Xia Shu'an gave him a strange look, but still didn't speak
Opposite the dormitory is the large playground, where the flag raising and morning exercises are performed. Directly facing the flagpole is a grandstand, and the center of the grandstand is a battleground for leaders.
"Do you remember how many times you have spoken on stage?"
Students with outstanding performance or favored by teachers can give speeches after the weekly flag-raising ceremony, such as Xia Shuan.Another example is Shen Boyan, not once.Of course, if he wants to now, he can sit in the top middle of the school hall and talk about the secret of his success to teachers and students.
Shen Boyan stretched out a hand to block the sunlight directly opposite, looked at the podium and said:
"You said at that time that 'Eutochus, an ancient Greek scholar, proposed the geocentric theory in the 2nd century AD, Copernicus proposed the heliocentric theory in the 16th century, Galileo created the astronomical telescope in 1609, discovered the uneven surface of the moon, and discovered the composition of the Milky Way. ......In 1903, human beings achieved air flight for the first time... For 1000 years, human beings have been exploring the universe, but the mysterious and boundless starry sky still leaves us countless secrets. This starry sky will belong to We, it is waiting for us to unearth its greatest secrets... may we meet again under the same starry sky when I throw the small fragments of the palm of my hand to the Milky Way together."
The childish and arrogant thoughts in his youth seemed a little embarrassing to Xia Shu'an as an adult, but he was still touched.He remembered that he had made a speech at the flag-raising ceremony, but he had no memory of what he said in detail, but when Shen Boyan said this, he seemed to recall the scene of that day.
It was a sunny day, and the air was slightly sweet and moist. He stood on the stage and let his eyes jump to all his companions in the audience, his heart was full of confidence and calmness.At that time, he was the true pride of heaven, beautiful, noble and elegant. Although he didn't say it, but at that age, when he was still full of middle school, he was secretly proud in his heart, thinking that he was the best person in the world.
"..." "You still wrote cheers for the people in your class at the sports meeting, do you remember?"
Shen Boyan turned around and looked at him with a smile:
"At that time, I competed with the people in your class in the 400-meter sprint. You wrote him a booster, and then I passed him in one go. As a result, your class only came second."
Xia Shu'an: "..."
Damn, you are the one who prevented us from getting No.1, right?
......
Shen Boyan dragged Xia Shu'an to continue walking, passing the dormitory building, passing the cafeteria... It doesn't matter if you don't eat in the cafeteria!
The bell for the end of get out of class rang in the middle of it. This may be the sound imprinted in the DNA of all Chinese people. When the music played, the two of them couldn't help shaking.
Standing under the tree, I watched the group of children run out of the classroom excitedly, some rushed to the small shop, some rushed to the playground... The two watched quietly for a while, and finally walked back.
There were many bicycles at the school gate. At that time, Xia Shu'an used to ride to and from school, but because he had to pet the cat, he would walk a certain distance before starting to ride.
The original small road has been opened up into an avenue with beautiful scenery on both sides, which is very suitable for precocious young men and women to take a walk slowly when the teacher is not paying attention.
Shen Boyan walked for a short distance, and squatted in front of a raised dirt field according to memory:
"I don't know if there are any kittens that will run into the school now."
Xia Shu'an was silent all the way, and finally spoke at this moment:
"That person is indeed you."
Shen Boyan simply smiled.
"I look forward to meeting you every day. As long as I think of seeing you after school, even the most boring class has its own interest. Even the waiting time is like the introduction before the opening of the movie."
Although Xia Shu'an really wanted to keep calm, his brows were still frowned by his exaggerated words.
Shen Boyan's expression suddenly sank, and after coming over for a while, he lowered his head and said:
"Xia Shu'an, do you know what I was thinking when I fell to the ground covered in blood that day?"
"I was thinking, it's a pity that I can't see you today."
Xia Shuan's eyelashes trembled.
The boy who had been stabbed several times by the enemy and lost consciousness due to blood loss in his abdomen was thinking at the last moment:
"It's a pity that I can't see that person today."
Immediately afterwards, he vaguely came up with a bold idea:
If he can't see me when he comes over, will he miss me too?Think about it, where did that person go?
And at the very last moment, the thought that crossed his mind was:
Great, didn't let him touch this scene.Don't let the boy he likes encounter such a thing.
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The man with his back to the young man smiled, turned his head, and said with a sunny face:
"After I woke up, I heard that a male classmate in the second year of high school found me, and I was worried for a long time. I thought, what should I do if I let you see that bloody scene? Will it scare you?"
"What if you have nightmares when you go back?"
The alleys highlighted in this report reminded Xia Shuan of the words in the investigation report. Although he didn't see it with his own eyes, the Internet and various news reports made it easy for him to imagine that scene.He felt a little uncomfortable in his heart. Hearing Shen Boyan's words now, he couldn't help retorting:
"I'm not that vulnerable!"
"But I'm just worried."
Shen Boyan tilted his head and said.Maybe because he was telling the truth, there was a bit of innocence on that cunning face.
"I care about everything about you. On rainy days, I will wonder if you have an umbrella. If you don't have an umbrella, I will secretly send the umbrella to your seat and you will accept it."
"When the sun is too big, I will wonder if you will be uncomfortable. I remember that your face is always pale, and you often stand aside in physical education class. When the sweet and sour fish in the cafeteria at noon is not delicious, I wonder if there is any food today. I didn't order this dish, would I be disappointed if I did...Xia Shu'an, I care about everything about you."
"..."
"So, when I knew that that person was not you, I was really relieved. Fortunately, it wasn't you, and I didn't let you see that bloody scene."
"Xia Shu'an, please believe me. I have never used you as a substitute, and you have never been anyone's substitute. I like you and it has nothing to do with who saved me."
"..."
If the resentment had a real image, then there was a cloud of white smoke rising slowly behind Xia Shu'an right now, and then it continued to float towards the sky until it dissipated completely.
Shen Boyan is indeed hateful, but he does love himself sincerely and clumsily.You can question the way he loves, but you cannot doubt his love.So when Xia Shuan saw the report, although he was sad and angry, he decided to give him a chance.
He didn't want to negate everything just because of other people's words and an established fact that had long passed.
"Really..." he stammered:
"Is it really not a substitute?"
Shen Boyan held out a hand:
"Absolutely not!"
"Isn't it because I saved you?"
"no!"
"It's not because I'm gentle?"
"No...not all, your 'gentleness' is just one reason why I like you."
"..."
"Xia Shu'an is because he is Xia Shu'an, so I like him."
"..."
Shen Boyan watched his expression, seeing that the resentment in his eyes gradually dissipated, and struck while the iron was hot:
"Can I kiss you now?"
Xia Shuan raised her eyelids and looked at him expressionlessly.
Shen Boyan immediately changed his words: "Can we hold hands now?"
......
......
They also visited teachers who had long since retired.
This elderly Chinese teacher is now enjoying her life at home. Looking at Xia Shu'an, she said cheerfully:
"It's Xia Shu'an, are you coming to see the teacher? Okay, okay."
Then she looked at Shen Boyan again, with furrowed eyebrows and hesitant eyes, Shen Boyan couldn't help but straighten his back nervously.
Finally, she said:
"I remember you, you always hang around outside our class, it's scary to see the tall and big people. I thought you were going to trouble someone in our class."
The corners of Shen Boyan's mouth twitched slightly, Xia Shu'an couldn't help but chuckled.
"However, I also remember that it was you who stood up when a girl in our class was pestered outside the school."
The teacher looked at him gently:
"Thank you, classmate."
"..."
Walking out of the teacher's house, Xia Shu'an turned to look at him:
"Where to go next?"
"Well, let's take you to the place where I used to live."
The car followed the avenue in the city center and slowly turned to a remote path. Shen Boyan was in the car and explained to Xia Shu'an the year he moved to Changning:
"Because I was not yet an adult, my uncle took me in. He didn't treat me badly, but at my age, I couldn't kiss them like a child. My uncle also has his own children, grandchildren and grandchildren. It’s about the same size, and it’s easy to cause conflicts when living together. I rented a house by myself and usually live there by myself.”
The car turned east and west, and arrived at a residential area at the end of a small alley.
This is obviously an old community. There are many abandoned bicycles scattered in the aisles. The smell of dirty water seeping from the cracks in the stone bricks on rainy days lingers in the air for a long time. When I look up, I can only see the upstairs of the complex. Bask in quilts of different colors.In a sunny open space, there are old people chatting in the sun, and children playing around the adults. The traces of decades of life are fully revealed at this moment.
The road ahead was narrow and the car was difficult to navigate, so the two simply stopped the car and walked over.
Shen Boyan pointed to the end of a small road and said, "It used to be a vegetable market, and I often went there to buy vegetables, so I really know how to cook!"
He spoke in a tone as if he was teasing an angry child, but the child was obviously not fooled and was still angry.
In all fairness, this is actually not a bad residential area, but as long as Xia Shuan thinks that Shen Boyan had to learn to live alone and bear all the heavy responsibilities of life alone when she was still the baby of her parents, she would feel sad in her heart. A little blocked.
The stuffy mood lasted until Shen Boyan took Xia Shuan's hand and walked into a community.Probably because it was broad daylight, the security guards at the gate of the community didn't pay attention to them, and they just chatted with the uncle on the side of the road.
"I used to live in this building, on the sixth floor, the stairs are a bit narrow, be careful."
Two people passing through the narrow aisle at the same time must be moved aside. The stairs that have not been cleaned for a long time are covered with dust, and the handrails are so dirty that Xia Shuan dare not touch them. She can only walk up slowly with her back straightened, but they have only reached the third floor stopped for a long time.
Shen Boyan: "Forget it, anyway, you can't go in anyway, it's illegal to break into a private house."
Xia Shu'an: "Why don't you say that earlier?"
They walked back slowly along the old road. Along the way, various smells kept stimulating Xia Shu'an's brain.Seeing his pale face, Shen Boyan took his hand and walked out to another intersection.
"There's a dessert shop over there that tastes okay, let's go and sit for a while."
Unfortunately, over the past ten years, the dessert shop has been replaced by a convenience store. Fortunately, the convenience store has fresh air and there are still places to sit.
The two asked for a bottle of water and sat down.
Occasionally people come in and out of the store, and when there is no one there, the clerk will concentrate on looking at the mobile phone, completely ignoring the people sitting in the store. Modern security is best reflected at this moment.Xia Shu'an lowered his head and looked at the water inside through the transparent plastic. The mineral water was so clear that there was no trace of haze, which made his brain empty as well.
"Shen Boyan—" the young man suddenly said:
"Then why didn't you say that at that time, at least when I took the initiative to talk to you, you can be more generous and wait for the opportunity to be my friend and stay by my side."
The man smiled slightly:
"I was very bad at the time. Whether as a student or as an ordinary person, I belonged to the middle and lower classes of this class. To be honest, don't look at me now, I was very inferior at that time. If you are made like this If someone likes it, you will definitely feel embarrassed."
If Shen Boyan had confessed to Xia Shu'an at that time, the boy named Xia Shu'an would definitely feel troubled, not only because of their backgrounds and study hobbies, even if they were just ordinary students and minors, Xia Shu'an would definitely not think about such things .
A boy's farewell will only end in failure.
But Xia Shu'an still felt unhappy.
"Then you can stay by my side as a friend."
Although he felt that it was despicable to stay by the side of the person he liked in the name of a friend, but if it was Shen Boyan, he was already that bad anyway, and it would not be a big deal if there was one more despicability in his arrogant and paranoid character.
However, Shen Boyan did not hesitate: "Impossible, I can't be your friend. My inferiority complex and possessiveness are natural. If I stay by your side often, I will lose control one day."
Rather than having to watch the frightened young man run away when he was powerless, it would be better to hide and hibernate. If he was still so weak and incompetent, then he would definitely not be able to drag his young man down.
But if one day he will be fully able to place his boy in his golden house, he will strike without hesitation, firmly bind the boy in his palm, and then give him all that he can give.
This was the thought of Shen Boyan who had nothing at that time.
Of course, don't tell Xia Shuan this kind of thing.
Tired of driving continuously, they decided to stay here at night and leave the next morning.
They had dinner at a barbecue restaurant near the hotel.
"This meat is roasted...this one is still alive!"
"..."
Xia Shuan: "Don't eat broccoli."
Shen Boyan: "Okay." Throw away the green pepper.
Xia Shu'an: "Wait - the green pepper is innocent!"
Put enoki mushrooms on top.
After a while...
Shen Boyan: "This Flammulina velutipes is really unpalatable."
Xia Shu'an: "..."
It wasn't a good meal, but it wasn't a bad meal.After the meal, the two of them did not go back to the hotel immediately, but walked slowly in the small park outside.
The streetlight slanted on the sides of the two, and there was a vague shadow on the ground.
"Let me buy you a bottle of water." There was a small shop ahead, and Shen Boyan ran up a few steps and took out his mobile phone to pay.
Xia Shu'an stood there waiting for him. Being bored, he took out his mobile phone. He left a location of Shen Boyan's place in the afternoon, and took a map with great interest to check how long he would spend going to school every day.
Suddenly, he frowned, and the brows became deeper and deeper.
When Shen Boyan came back, Xia Shuan took a picture of the map route displayed on the phone screen on his face:
"Shen Boyan, the map shows that if you go to the school from where you live, it is the fastest way to go through Luchuan Road from the main entrance. If you go through the alley, you have to go around a long way, at least ten times longer than taking Luchuan Road. Come on for a minute..."
Shen Boyan's eyes wandered for a moment.
Xia Shu'an's eyes gradually became confused: "Is it because it has been rebuilt in the past few years? Well, no, the building area shown here will be there when you study."
Shen Boyan coughed lightly.
"It turned out to be there."
"Then why did you take the long way home..."
Xia Shuan was puzzled, Xia Shuan tilted his head, Xia Shuan frowned.
Xia Shu'an suddenly realized.
"So you didn't meet me there on the way home, you knew that I was going on that road, and you waited for me there on purpose?!!!"
Xia Shuan was shocked:
Before this moment, he thought that because the two of them happened to be walking the same way home, that's why they met in the alley.Shen Boyan fell in love with him only after getting along with him a few times.But now it appears that things are quite the opposite.
"You follow me!!!"
Shen Boyan argued with a straight face: "I don't, I'm not, I just happen to like you and walked the same path as you!"
Xia Shu'an: "Get the hell out of here, you still know the bookstore I often go to and the dishes I often order at noon. You will never go to the bookstore. If you didn't follow me, how would you know the bookstore I often go to!"
"You can also memorize my speech, you are a big pervert!"
Shen Boyan: "..."
"Then those were just accidents! Memorizing speeches is just because I have a good memory..."
"You have a good memory and you are so bad in the exam!"
Xia Shuan leaned back tactically, looking at the flushed man with disgust:
"I never met you before meeting in the alley, otherwise I wouldn't forget, we haven't talked and chatted, you don't know me at all, you just like me, you..."
Xia Shu'an was expressionless: "You are interested in sex."
Shen Boyan: "Isn't it good?!!! It's not like there are no people who look better than you in school, why didn't I like them?!"
Xia Shuan frowned: "Who looks better than me?"
Shen Boyan: "Uh..."
Xia Shu'an: "You really are just looking for sex!!!"