[HP] Alive

Chapter 1: 1. Transaction

"Stay alive!"

"Alive..."

"Please live..."

"To survive..."

"You have to live!"

"Alive!"

No!No! ! !No! ! ! ! ! !

You all wanted me to live, you all left and only me was left!

Even if I'm the only one left, will you let me live?

But how can I live alone?

In the nightmare of every night, screams, struggles, green and red lights are intertwined, blood, cursing, roaring, time and time again.

James and Lily would be dead, if I hadn't been the boy in the prophecy... Segrick would be dead, if I hadn't brought him there... Sirius would be dead, if I hadn't stepped into the trap recklessly and impulsively... Dumbledore is dead, if I hadn't been so stupid and arrogant that there is no cure for it...

Moody died, just to cover me and move to a safe place... Snape is dead, how could a generation of potions masters die of snake venom!He lived, but died because of me... Remus died, Tonks died, Fred died, Colin died, and countless others died... That's war!

But, but... Ginny is dead, and I have always regarded her as my own sister!But she blocked the sneak attack for me, died cold and stiff... Teddy died, he was only two years old!That's Remus' son, my godson!Yes, it is precisely because he is my godson that someone would assassinate a child... And then, Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, Percy, George, Bill, Fleur, Charlie, died in a poisoning together...

It turns out that what is more terrible than war is the revenge after the war.

The rest of the Death Eaters were completely insane, they had no scruples.

Ron completely lost his mind because of the death of his family members. He even hated me, I know, but at that time, he still chose to let me live, covered in blood...

Hermione is always the smartest and calmest, but I'm not, I still haven't grown up at all, even though I knew it was a trap, I still jumped into it without hesitation.Maybe I was looking for death at that time, but why did Hermione die?why?People say she's my brains, but only I know, she's like my sister, even... my mother, not even Ron is as important as she is to me.

Dead, all dead, Professor McGonagall who was overworked and sick, Professor Flitwick who was severely injured in the war, Neville was designed by Slytherin students (both parents were Death Eaters and both died) in herbal medicine class Poisoned to death by herbs, Luna burned alive to protect a kidnapped child, and solitary members of the Order of the Phoenix who were besieged and killed by Death Eaters...

I finally learned Avada Kedavra, learned to be insidious and cunning, to use any means...

The Slytherins were almost destroyed, but the real Slytherins, like the Malfoys, were at least alive.Slytherins will do anything to protect their treasures.

After ten years, Draco was finally my friend, my last and only friend. "No matter how nearly seven years of Gryffindor make you look like the idiot lion of Gryffindor, it can't hide the fact that you are a Slytherin snake."

"It's a pity that the lion skin has been worn for a long time. By the time I think about taking it off, it's too late." I replied with despair to my friend's complex gray-blue eyes.

It's as if I live in eternal darkness, and even the night cannot sleep peacefully. Even if my enemies are turned to dust, I can never smile again.I can only breathe the cold and merciless air, I can only drink endless scorching wine to warm my frozen body, and I can only watch you die again and again in the endless nightmare.

In order to be liked, to be able to make friends, to be safe, for everything, I chose Gryffindor and became a Gryffindor, even though I should be a Slytherin.

Then, as a brainless Gryffindor, let the matter develop to the point where there was no possibility of redemption.

If I were Gryffindor, I'd kill all my enemies and live and start a new life of my own, even for you.

But I'm not, so I can't, and can't pretend to be a Gryffindor anymore.

Why is my heart still beating? I almost thought that I had died, but I was still alive.

Enough is enough, I have, don't want to live anymore.

I miss you all the time, just as I am now longing for death all the time.

I'm sorry, this is the last and only time I don't listen to you, but at the end, let me do whatever I want, okay?

Forgive me...forgive me, there is no way to live anymore...

"what do you want?"

"What can you do?"

"anything."

"Anything?...I...I want everything I lost back!"

"So, what have you lost?"

"My loved ones, my friends, and all the people I love..."

"Are you sure? You know that's not what I saw."

"...What do you mean? What do you want to say!"

"Quiet, isn't it?"

"No! Bring them back! Come back!"

"Okay! Return of the dead and absolute silence. Right?"

"……right……"

"Well then, you know, I gave you what you want, and you have to give me what I want."

"Yes! What do you want? My wealth? My magic? My life?"

"No, dear, you are such a sweet child, too cute. I am Death, and I don't need what humans want. Memory, I want all your past memories, how about it? Now, you agree to the deal ? You just need to answer yes or no."

"……I agree……"

"Okay! Good boy, see you later, I wish you a better future..."

Those were the last words ever heard by Harry Potter, and then everything fell into darkness.

"You'll never hear the phrase 'alive' again, or I'll return your memory. There's one more gift—you'll love it."